If I want mercy when I sin, then why is it so hard for me to be merciful? No, seriously. If I want God to treat me with care and forgive me when I sin, then why do I have such a difficult time extending mercy to those I feel have wronged me?
One day at work, I was at my desk stewing over some people who’d hurt me. I was so angry with them; I wanted them to get what they deserved! God cut right through that thought and said, “But what if you get what you deserve?” That question stopped me cold. Immediately, I become defensive and said, “But, Lord, I am a good person.” Right then I knew I had to let it go because I am not a good person. How could I sit in judgment of these people and withhold forgiveness when I had been forgiven of so much?